Struggling with the TV Question
Ok. I’m going to admit it. I love TV. I grew up with a TV on almost all of the time. It is a comfort to me from my childhood. I love the bond my sister, childhood friends and I have over certain shows. I love going to work now, everyone excited to discuss last night’s episode whatever we all are watching.
But lately, the noise of the TV has been bothering me. Maybe it is because I now spend more time in front of the computer screen and the sound coming from the TV has been the noise of children’s programming.
When we started Waldorf, I was determined to stop all TV. I lasted a day. I made myself feel better by thinking: At least Mischa is not seeing or hearing adult shows-the only programming on, is for her. At least she isn’t allowed on the computer. We only have one TV and one laptop. My husband just got an iPhone about 2 months ago and I don’t have one yet. About a year ago, we switched to streaming only on our TV – but honestly just as much for cost reasons as for having commercial-free shows for Mischa. We are sensitive to what we talk about in front of her and ask our family to do the same. We have not been told that it interferes with her school day. I remind myself of these things on a weekly basis as my guilt increases over her screen time.
I see her reliance on it growing. We were given an iPad and she asks everyday if she can play on it. I am more restrictive of this screen for some reason. But then I think, well, drawing on the iPad is better than staring at the TV. And then the guilty mom excuses start in my head again.
There are too many reasons, and so many of them typical, to explain our slide into so much screen time. Schedules, an only child who doesn’t read yet, lifetime habit… Here are some answers to the questions I hear in your head. Yes, I read. Yes, I read about the effects of media and the merits of boredom. Am I creative and crafty and can come up with things for us to do? Mostly. Do we spend time outside? Yes. Do I wish we could be a no-TV family, like I wish I could be vegan instead of having bacon be one of my favorite foods? Yes.
When I voice my frustration, people (outside of school) suggest that at least Mischa is getting the Waldorf experience during the day. People from school ask why would we chose Waldorf education if we are not going to follow the philosophy. I am grateful that our school does not dictate our home life to us. But maybe I do need more support from the school community. An ongoing discussion? A Maitin/Mirsky media mentor perhaps?
I know there are in betweens (movie night, weekends only) but I wonder if it is possible to become an almost screen free household after being one for so long. And truthfully, Mischa and I enjoy watching together. (I hear the voices, “But you could be bonding over something else!”) And what is now worse, screen time is Mischa watching TV by herself and me over on the computer (I don’t use one for my work and so I sit at home in the afternoon and catch up on the day of Facebook posts and emails). Really, not being plugged in will be harder on me than it is on Mischa. My reliance on the computer for entertainment and information exists just as much as hers does for the TV.
We have committed to doing the media-free week. I already have visions of sneaking in Game of Thrones after Mischa goes to sleep (it would be so easy!) Will my house be cleaner, my garden weeded, my pets combed? Will I finish the book that has been sitting by my bed, unread since the ipad arrived? Maybe Mischa and I will actually cook dinner together. Maybe we will walk the poor dog.
Maybe I will share my week of experiences with you. But… maybe not. You tell me.
Alex Kujawa is mom to Mischa in Apple Tree Kindergarten.


